Depression

Tuesday AM

He felt a sense of sick unease in his bowels, the day was going to be long and uneventful. A dog briefly barked in the distance, the morning wind rustling the leaves of the tree’s. It was a public holiday Tuesday and he sat like he always did on the balcony by himself partially exposedContinue reading “Tuesday AM”

World Mental Health Day

World Mental Health Day Today is World mental health Day and as a diagnosed schizophrenic who also suffers from major clinical depression I just thought I’d say a few words about it. Mental illness is one of the most stigmatised and pilloried group of conditions that a human being could have today especially in developingContinue reading “World Mental Health Day”

Equilibrium

I’ve tried everything, antidepressants , anti psychotics, off label uses of medications, binaural beats Saint John’s Wort, 5 Htp , hormones, supplements, coffee, herbal tea, healthy eating, exercise, mindfulness, vitamins, minerals, stimulants, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), alcohol, herbal preparations, illegal drugs, religion, witch doctors, logic but still I’m down the rabbit hole of delusional depressiveContinue reading “Equilibrium”

Cease to Exist

Wouldn’t it be the bee’s knees if we all had a cease to exist button, of course it would have a failsafe switch which would only allow access to said button triggered by an overload of despondent negativity. It would be the ultimate in convenience and there would be no pain or even vapour leftContinue reading “Cease to Exist”

Damn Wall!

Ow!

Trevor Berbick v.s Mike Tyson

For me in my ongoing battle I am Trevor Berbick against the depressions Mike Tyson on “Judgement Day” November twenty two nineteen eighty six at The Las Vegas Hilton. After the opening feeling out of the first round I’m feeling quite cocky against this opponent and choose to go head to head with him, theContinue reading “Trevor Berbick v.s Mike Tyson”

Eternal Darkness

It can happen at the most inconvenient time, when you are needed to be present the most. A brief lull and then the full force of it upon you, you are incapacitated completely. You could be in the best place in your life, but you wouldn’t know it. Not even the ability to squirm underContinue reading “Eternal Darkness”

Life is Suffering, or is It!?

I, inspired by The Bipolar Writer feel I should say a few words about mental illness and people with several afflictions of such. I’ve been around a lot of people with multiple diagnosis’s in hospital , clinics and daily life. The first thing I just want to say to someone refusing to surrender is this,Continue reading “Life is Suffering, or is It!?”

Sunlight

The afternoon early autumn sunlight at my back, the weather turned mercifully cool, thank God for small mercies. I was reading a blog and the blogger basically stated that they would do nothing but post positive content. Then I thought about this for a little while, true there is a tsunami of negative content andContinue reading “Sunlight”

I suffer from depression,it started in my later high school years and was untreated until my early adulthood, The treatment was ad hoc at first and then in my late twenties commenced in full. During the first couple of years of treatment I was complete, content and happy just another human being in their adulthood.Continue reading “Depression”